Monday = Cane Day

I remembered when I transferred to mom's school. We always have test on Fridays. And I never passed, not even once. Punishment was very popular or should I say a big hit back in those days. It's either you copy the mistakes 5  to 20 times or you copy the whole thing 5 to 20 times. But, that's not case. If it was just copying, I would be more happy to do it. But, the treat was, those who fail will get the cane first day at school. Doesn't anyone realize that knowing that one will definitely get the cane on Monday would make one doesn't want to go to school? Those times, I really hate Sundays because the whole day I wouldn't stop thinking, "Ahh..shit..stupid..shit shit shit." and this is not something you tell your mom when she's teaching in the same school you're going to. I felt hopeless and an idiot and I felt I let my mom down somehow.

How many cane one gets depends on how any mistakes one made. I never get half correct (I failed) so I get a lot of cane. Not that I'm afraid of it or anything. I just hate the fact that, it was practically emotionally abusing me and ruining my weekends. I was only 11 for God's sake! And also, it's a subject that I'm not good at. It's not that I didn't study at all. It's so damn deep for me at the time.

Up to this day, I couldn't see the point of memorising nor remembering all those things. I don't see what was the purpose. Until today, I don't even use a single thing that was tested every Friday.I had no idea what was my teacher thinking about having my classmates and I to go through all that torture. Please, you'll agree with me if you grew up in an English speaking environment.

What's the point? Having to sit for Chinese proverbs tests every Friday and get caned every Monday?? Of all days, she has to choose Friday. Why not Monday? I'd rather get the cane every Friday so that I'll work harder over the weekends and sit for the test on Monday so that there's higher chances to pass that test. As if Monday to Thursday, I don't have to go to school and do other homework. Timing is so wrong. Getting caned on Monday made school week suck.


I don't hate my teacher. I really like her. I just hate the stupid test and I don't remember a thing I studied.


monologku: bagi saya perumpamaan, simpulan bahasa,  Bahasa Mandarin adalah mimpi ngeriku.

Being ill

Being ill is not something that is enjoyable and I know most of us hate being ill. The fact that one's body ache all over as if the bones are shattering, head aches as if it's being stabbed over and over again. Not to mention that there are always certain parts of the body that are aching, joints that seemed to be so fragile that they are going to break at any moment.

On a usual Saturday, I was sewing covers for two new tiny pillows. Pillows that I improvised from the one, which was destroyed, tore apart by Piku. I don't know whether it was because of the sitting position while I was sewing the pillow or was it because of the unpredictable weather. It took me a lot of concentration to sew two covers for me to be able to stuff the cotton in them. I felt uncomfortable while sewing and my body started to ache all over and I can feel the heat all over my body.

It was weird as Piku was not going crazy while I was sewing. He really loves pillows and he shows his love by ripping them apart. I've lost count the number of pillows and soft toys I threw away . He would hump on every pillow he could find to the extent of going into the bedroom, jumps on the bed hunting for pillows. He would bite and growl fiercely at anyone who comes in his way. I was never bitten by him or should I say when he shows signs of aggression.

In the end...I finally accepted the fact that I am ill. I was not cared, I took care of myself. After having the dinner that I cooked and the mishaps that happened in the kitchen where my favourite bowl was broken by someone, oven dented. I went upstairs and took my bath and quickly dressed up before I get any worst. I was dragging myself to the bed and lied down on the mattress that gives me body ache every time I wake up the next day. I can feel the heat and the chill in my bones. All I could think of was to get out from this illness and how much I hated it. I slowly dozed off when suddenly I could feel a thump for one second then nothing. I thought it was a dream. Then another..then nothing...then another. I was startled and I could see Piku had both his front paws on the bed wanted to jump on the bed. I was "Oh..no...here he comes for the pillow. How can I rest?" Feeling annoyed and knowing my boyfriend was sleeping downstairs and don't even care if I was fine. It's the second time in one month that I have fallen ill. He doesn't really take care of me.His form of caring is more to speaking. I guess he doesn't know action speaks louder than words.

Piku wanted to jump on the bed and I thought he was going to aim at one of the pillows but he didn't. He just came to me and started sniffing all over my face. After sniffing me, he licked my face, my neck and my hands. I just fell asleep after that not knowing when did he stop licking me. Then, I woke up. There he was, with his eyes closed, he just laid there on his belly next to my feet. The movements I make startled him and again...he did the same thing he did. I slept throughout the night knowing Piku is right next to me.

When I woke up in the morning, he was still there. I still have fever and it was hot and stuffy so I went downstairs and rolled out the mattress and continue sleeping after lunch (only ate a bite or two of the bread) that I shared with Piku. Together with the new pillows, I slept throughout the afternoon in peace and only awoken by Piku not by his mischief but his licking and sniffing. I was too weak to stop him from licking nor entertain any calls that came in, including from my mother. 

I don't know why or what. It feels like Piku knows that I'm ill and did all the licking to make me feel better. He is a good dog despite for his "hunt and hump" activities. I love Piku very much. 

Piku took care of me more than someone did at this moment. Although I know it could be due to the profuse sweat but I'd still prefer believing that Piku knows I'm ill and cares for me gently. At least, I know there is something that cared about me than not having someone to care for me.

monologku: Dogs are man's best friend. Reminds me of Hachiko the movie.

Straight lines, Dotted lines, Double lines...

I had a very weird dream where I was back in school. Class teacher did not like me because I was late to school every day. A friend of mine was also late to school every morning. He was my classmate. I dreamed that I thought I was the only one late but one day I bumped into him and was surprised. Anyways, in real life I was never late for school. Why? Hee...because my mother is a teacher so, she had to send my brothers and I to school before going to her school. My brothers and I attended different secondary schools so we would often leave the house early. Mom's school is right in the heart of the city while my brothers' and my school are near the beach and my school is nearer to the beach, which is further. Y(^^) so I never had to worry of getting my name written down by the prefects waiting at the gate.

I remembered when I was in primary school, my sister was always late to school...because my dad would send us, kiddies before sending her to school..hmm..I wonder why but my sister was never late to school after my brothers and I transferred to my mom's school because the teachers in the school we attended are racists.psst..you see, my siblings and I are mixed blood.

Being late to school is not the main point of this entry. Every where we go, there are rules and regulations. Every country has their own laws so is every house. I'm aware of rules and obey rules not because I'm a goody-two-shoes. It is because it is a guideline for me to be a good person. To kill another human being is a bad thing to do, because families of murdered victim had to suffer the lost of their loved ones. If there are no rules, every one would go astray and there would be no peace in this world.

Just like when we are driving or riding on the road, we have to follow traffic regulations. If you see a No Entry sign, you should not enter as there might be another road user coming at you or else there would be a "Bang!" and "Mee Mo Mee Mo Mee Mo". When traffic light shows red, you should stop or else you could knock down a 3-year-old boy who is crossing when the pedestrian light shows green. There were a few encounters that I was almost knocked down by vehicles whose drivers did not stop when they are supposed to stop.

Human race is a very weak race. In this world of temptations, I don't think any human race could resist any of it and would easily go astray if there are no rules. One would be clueless, confused and lost. The same thing applies when road users are on a road where there are no white lines, dotted lines, double lines on a freshly tarred road.

So, we are Sinners...

Alright, enough said on having different religions.. Yes, different but as long as we respect one another it's all for the better. Here's the thing, if there is only one religion in this world, how would that make a difference? I'm sure every one or community or whatever country they are from would still have something to argue about, don't you think? "Ooo..I'm a better (insert a religion here) than you..., that's not the WAY it is dot dot dot..." and on goes the list. Hmm..how should I start this..? 

Yes, this entry will touch on religious matters. Nothing sensitive I hope but I just couldn't take it anymore. I'm a Catholic and brought up as a Catholic and I went to Sunday Schools, received my First Holy Communion in 1997 and Confirmation in 2005. I know the Holy Trinity, the Eucharist, that Easter is not about colourful eggs and rabbits, the basic prayers etc. 

You see, I remembered the question my Sunday School teacher, Mr Eric asked, "Do you know why we call ourselves Christians?" Like the rest, I answered, "No.." Ahh..let's cut to the chase..too lazy to type all the dialogue. According to him, the word "christian" is a compound word "christ" being Holy so Christians don't call themselves Christ. "Ian" on the other hand means a sinner? (I don't know if it's true and still confuse and hope someone knowledgeable would enlighten me). He also said that we are not good enough to be called "Christ". Enough said and straight to the point.

Look, there are many many types of I don't know...Christians? Roman Catholic, Protestant, Anglican, Jehovah Witness, SDA, Methodist, Grace Church, SIB and the list goes on. Yeah, I'm happy that one of my friends have converted to Christianity and given up on idol worshiping but hey, you can always keep it to yourself man. I admit I'm not a good Christian and only God knows how long I missed Sabbath. Don't you think it's hysterical that there are different "tribes" in Christianity itself? Bah! No one has the right telling "other" Christians that their "tribe" are not a bunch of good Christians. Just because what the Bishops or Archbishops did CENTURIES ago does not mean the religion is not good, they were not good Christians besides, they died a very very loooong time ago. Please, stop humiliating yourselves.

Come to think of it, I just don't get it. I don't know about the rest of the "tribe", I find other "tribes" than my own (I can't believe I'm even  using this term), other "tribes" are always bashing my "tribe" This is based on personal experience and it's the whole truth and nothing but the truth! 

Grace Church: telling its followers that the RC are bad example in Christianity, persuading a Catholic to convert?

Jehovah Witness: someone told me that, "Oh, she said yours is not good." (yours here refers to my "tribe")

SIB: Better than RC and on goes the list.

Hmm..yeah, we're bad asses but guess what..Father Jojo whom I met during Inter Campus Gathering said this, " Let them say whatever they want to say, YES, we are bad, we're sinners! And Lord Jesus Christ walks with us the SINNERS! Hallelujah to that!"

Take that, in your faces! Don't take it wrong..I'm not an extremist. I'm just confused, all these so-called Christians and I pray to the same God, why compare to which is more superior? Don't be such a hypocrite...and grow up...every one knows that RC is the first and due to some unsatisfactory matters that later sprout like mushrooms and still referring to the Bible to learn how to be pious Christians.

By the way, to whom it may concern..I know what Holy Spirit is...and I've felt them in my bones and my whole body...and spoke in tongues..so, you can relax and chill...Take this Christianity slowly and no hard feelings. I guess you're too excited..and I forgive you for bashing my "tribe".

monologku: takke lawak ada benda mcm ni...walaupun tinggal satu ugama di dunia ini, akan ada perbalahan antara umat-umatnya...percayala. Manusia durjana yang tak sehebat orang ATAS nak berdebat pasal siapa yg lagi bagusss. Baik Punya!

TM Unifi

Alright, I've been subscribing Streamyx since 2006 and at first I was happy with it. Hey, it's the fastest back then (1M) but after a few years, it started to get pretty slow...and I was so upset with the connection. For goodness sakes, I paid RM99 every month and not to mention the fixed line and the package subscribed with it for free TM fixed line calls nationwide. RM160++  exclude tax. 

I am an active Mafia Wars player on Facebook and I was tired of being whacked and not being able to heal up in time to avoid being iced by other players and it's even more frustrating when my clan organises mock wars. The connection is too slow and by the time the page is finally downloaded, I was already iced. See how frustrating is that? I feel like straggling somebody. Yeah, I know what you think, it's only a game. But, hey, a game that requires strategy. The strategy fails when it is delayed under all kinds of unexpected circumstances. Ah, well. This is not my point.

An MW family member mentioned TM Unifi and said that's it's fast 5M with fibre optic cable. Whoo! Seriously! Of course, I had to consider it carefully because TM's customer service never meets my (most average) expectation (based on personal experience). I googled it, I went to its website, practically find out everything about Unifi (recommended package, price, procedure, deposit, installation fees etc)

Apparently, the last time I checked in June 2010, Unifi is not available in all places. Only in Bangsar, TTDI, Subang Jaya and Shah Alam. Y(^_^) Yay! One of the place listed is where I'm staying. So, I applied and Woo hoo!!

I'm now a TM Unifi subscriber since July 2010 and very happy about it although it is a basic package VIP5 at RM149, which costs less than the amount I paid for my Streamyx and fixed line. It also comes with a dect phone, modem, wireless router, and a decorder.Yes, you can enjoy Hypp TV and its Video On Demand, which I really enjoy watching.

TM Unifi is now available in not four but 22 places.

Monologku: Cuba sekali nak lagi...eh eh eh..macam la boleh dimakan...

Every day wondering

I've been wondering, how is it some people could just live their lives by taking and not giving?

There is always a reason when it's "give and take" and not "take and give". It means you have to give then take what you deserve. Same goes when you're employed. You work diligently for the whole week or month before getting your salary. You see, that's common sense. Anyone with a brain could have thought of that. I don't know what some of you might think but there are some people out there only take and not give.

Like some or most people say, one is always blessed for giving and take less. So, is it true that people who always take, will always take more because they are not blessed? Hmm...I don't know.

I always wonder why is it so hard for people to do me favours when I always do the favours for them? All kinds of favours that include my time, energy, money etc. A good friend of mine says, "There goes the proverb a friend in need is a friend indeed. Kawan yang tak boleh pakai (friends who are unreliable or not to be kept)."

I'm a little disappointed that there are more selfish people than generous ones. Wouldn't it be a better world if there are more generous people? Every one would be helping one another out. Then, there would be less whining, complaints etc...

Monologku: Tak boleh pakai