Flying to KK thinner.

The last time I flew to Kota Kinabalu, Sabah was for a wedding and also the first wedding I attended in Sabah. Today, after 2 years, I'm going to Sabah for a wedding.

Our relationship are too close not to attend.  I would even attend both receptions if the bride and groom come from different places, which...I actually did for these two good friends of mine.
Well, we all know each since our university days and became close just like that. I missed one of Zurin's wedding because I was back in Sarawak and being unemployed at the time doesn't allow me to travel.
We are fond of one another, even their husbands enjoy each husbands' company.
It's the kind of life I would definitely love to be in.
As our friendship grew so was my body. I expanded and was really really overweight. I was 25kgs overweight.
Friends who are always say lose weight:
☆ before getting married. You want good wedding potraits for your children to see.
★ if you want to get pregnant. You do not want to be carrying EXTRA kilos when you're having a baby. It would be a hard pregnancy experience because your legs, feet not to mention your spine which are fragile and irreplaceable to support the heavy weight.
☆etc.

So, I was fat when I attended the first wedding in Sabah and I have lost weight, so, I'll be meeting most of my friends tomorrow and attend a second wedding in Sabah looking thinner.

Updates:
By the way, I missed the flight.

monologku: Bila dah berjaya mengurangkan berat badan, tak perlu aku bagitau yang sekarang ni,  aku rasa lebih cergas, otak pum cerdas.

It's not F.O.C.

Recently,  I've read something online and it proves that it's not really the big fish that eats the small fish. It's the fast that eats the slow ones. Familiar? Yea, I read it somewhere many years ago. Just the title though. But I do understand what it conveys.

It's meaningless after you fail for not putting in more effort and resenting whoever for whatever that had happened. Your failure is because you didn't not because they didn't. It is not their obligation to feed you. They can show you how but not feed you. It's not their job. They're not your parents.

So...stop saying only so and so race at the top management,  only so and so race are the directors. Why do u think they owned the company? Why are they at the top while you're at the bottom? Why do you think it's not fair that they make profits that are so ridiculously high and questioned their ethics in doing business?

Let me ask you these questions.

◆Where were you when their business is only on a piece of paper?

◇Where were you when they were brainstorming on their business strategy?

◆Where were you the day the name of the company was officially registered?

Now, do you get it?

So, it's not really about burdening the consumers. The consumers have the right not to purchase. For you to actually revealing the actual cost of a product your company is marketing to the public. Pnc didn't come across your mind?

I mean by doing that...how can a different company hire you because of the things you did? You might resign and reveal the company's information to others. The public migjt think you're a hero. But I don't think you made any difference because the company is still around, expanded and yes, still selling their product.

I don't really know your story and I don't want to know.  These are only my opinions and it's based on how you conveyed the message. I'll briefly rephrase them in point form.
☆This race
★Top positions no other race.
☆Cheat other races.
★Only think about money, no heart.

So, those are the main ideas of that message. Although the message did include the marketing strategies and the profits made. Those are just the elaboration.

Don't question my credibility, okay? I'm a trained professional. I know how to mark an essay (referring to the message)

Suddenly,  why so serious you think. If you want to know, haha! I think korang mesti pengsan. I menyibuk je. Benda ni langgsung takde kena mengena dgn saya pun. Company mana satu I pun tak tau, penulis tu pun tak tau siapa. Hahah!

U know la, I tak suka org meracuni fikiran org lain dgn bahas yg tak munasabah okay? Sebab org  punya profit margin lagi tinggi dan lagi kaya dari kita org. Kita je yang tak bijak sgt. Kalau kita adalah founder company tu, kita yg kaya. So, my point is this. We're not the founder nor the co-founder, tak payah nak dengki pastu hasut org awam. Lagi nak bongkar rahsia syarikat. Ishh..dengki tahap cipan ni. Tak payah nak graduate doktor falsafah dah ada PHD, bagus kan?

monologku: "Success is not free of charge. You need to pay for it...and it's very expensive."- Mine, 2013.

Ps: Hai O rupanyerr (25.5.2013 )

New beginning.

I have the urge to go different paths,  a decision which is considered risky and stupid for some who prefer stability. Actually, I have been having that thought. It's just that no one would actually give proper encouragement and would demotivate me from going for that risky idea of mine.
Business is hard. Too many competitions. If I'm not sharp or quick enough, I'll fall behind. If I am fast but lack the creativity needed for this idea of mine, I will definitely fail.
I have to think positively about this. Don't mind failing if it teaches me something. I have nothing to lose.

Just let me fail if you want to be right!

Be different and I am without much effort. Problem with wanting to be unique is difficult when society and family have expectations. When their expectations are not met, they say "if you are average, then you are. There's nothing you can do to be more than that". However,  when it comes to their expectations of you, they say different things "You're smart,  intelligent and always think outside of the box. You'll definitely make it"

I cannot but ponder what sort of double standards that they're pulling. This type of behaviour confuses me even more and have put me on hold for a period of time so I decided to take the road not taken although they say I'm an average person who has no creativity.
I'll never know if I never fail.
I'll never know you're right if I never fail.
My failures will be on me if I tried.
My failures will be on you if you won't let me.
Yes, coming from grudges.

Thank you for the motivation. A leap I shall leap.

From Friend to Acquaintance

Unlike in Facebook, we can't "unfriend" our friends in reality. Normally, we would just take a step further from that friend hoping the distance is far enough.

Conflicts often affect friendship. However, time heals all pain and everything will go back as it was but not the same.

In a clique or in our life,  we always have that one friend who is different,  troublemaker. I don't know what kind of friend I was but I do know I treat them well and nice. I was the naive one.

Being nostalgic and all because of a dream I had about an ex boyfriend of mine. Really really out of the blue and for the first time. Memories of the past rushed into my head.

We were young, my friends and I. Now, that I'm older. Those past really angered me. I was hurt, betrayed. How could they put me into those kind of situations where I could've gotten hurt? They, I meant friends I know of different times.

I had someone I really like courting me snatched. Oh, yes. She knew I liked him. She didn't know him until I mentioned him to my friends. Until today, she has no idea what she has done and no idea what another friend of ours said about her because of this.
I was also put in situations where I could've gotten raped. Fortunately and I thank God for protecting me. I always get away with it even when they left me with the other person. "They" different person. Never in my right mind would do that to any of my friends. So, how could they?

So, girls...careful with whom you're friends with. Always trust yourself and no one when it comes to your own safety.

So, can I downgrade their status from friend to acquaintance? Already done that for years.