"Torn in between to trust or not to trust. The evidence of contradictions is obvious. Going abroad either when I have planned to see him or when I'm on leave is too much of a coincidence."
Hi, it's been awhile. Refer to the previous post under the same title means, I'm writing about the same person. So, yes. We're finally in a relationship. Should I be happy about it? Of course, I am. I am happy that he accepts me when I'm in a mess, when I'm broken, without judging me.
My previous relationship wrecked me. Goodbye to the 14 years of relationship. Anyways, it's already in the past.
I should be able to start fresh but because of my past, I have problems healing myself, going back to how I was...having faith in people, trusting people.
He has been that way from the day we knew each other. He never changes. The problem lies in me. I still have trust issues despite his assurance. It's really hard to convince me anymore. I'm afraid. I don't ever want to deal with that pain anymore.
Please understand, when your trust is betrayed, lied to over and over again, do you think it will end there after the relationship ends? No, my darlings...the pain doesn't stop there. When the pain stops, your perception towards people's ability to lie doesn't change. Mistrust destroys relationship...future relationships...even relationship that hasn't even started.
This is how my previous relationship affects my relationship now.
So, to all couples out there...think twice before cheating on the person who trust and love you the most. You have no idea the impact of your selfishness has on them.
I want to be happy with my newly beloved person, but I need to fix my trust issues.
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