Lost Touch

Jeez, it's pretty ridiculous and embarassing getting back to blogging after leaving it hanging for years/months. I'm sorry about that. I get distracted too often. And most of the time when I blog, it's because I know, people that I know don't read it. And it's the only place I could pour my heart and soul out. I guess...the devil (me) has sold me out.

I read the entries when I was hanging around Kuching back in 2010. And told my friend about the entries I blogged because I've included our conversations. They were pretty hilarious. To us, of course. So, I was thinking "Hey, Bab. What do you think about compiling these entries and do Adventures of Fio and Bab?" So, I gave him the link and yah..I think he'll be reading some of the entries that have lots of typos/grammatical mistakes. Hahaa...('.')||

So, not a safe haven for me anymore. But, blah..who cares. It's a good chance for my friends to know what had happened to me. Why I go MIA for months/years...haha.

Kan dah cakap..I get distracted easily. Back to the title, lost touch. Apa yang lost touch sebenarnya? To write creatively...I think I lost my sense of humour...not as funny anymore.

I remembered a writer said this,

" If you want to write. Go and live! Go to any other parts of the world and get your heart broken then come back and write..."

The thing is, I don't need to go to any other parts of the world to get my heart broken. It already did without me going anywhere. And how am I supposed to write when I feel bitter? Things I write...may be full of anger, sadness. I don't want that. What I want is, whenever I read the entries I posted, I'd laugh hysterically at the silly things that happened or at things that were said.

Right now, I'm still bitter. I'm "recuperating", getting close to nature, absorbing its energy so I could move on.

Despite being in a new relationship doesn't help me with it, I'm assuming that I'm supposed to deal with it on my own. I don't know when will that be, but time will come when I no longer need/want a relationship. Or I no longer need/want him because it doesn't make any difference with or without him now. However, I sincerely hope, it doesn't come to that.

Monologku: Do yourself a favour this time.